小感動

after watched movie "click"... suddently feel touch n warm
u take back ur jacket from my shoulder..
walk n walk ...move to car park to take car.....

"we go to have some food??.." u asked..
"why face look so white (like no blood)" u asked again... break off already" my answer...
"why?..." u asked..
"not going to tell, dont wanna touch the pain that i try to ignore hardly" ...i answer

understand...
that feel just like... whole world suddently quite... dont wanna to be disturb.. dont wanna to be ask...if ask also dont feel to answer...

our car drove through Cheras...through Kepong....through Petaling Jaya.. aroung 40++ KM... feel my tear come out without any signal...
"feel cool"... wear the jacket from u ..... "r u ok ?"... u asked...
no respon, just shake my head slowly.. sob... u stop the car beside... go down alone... smoking there .....
"let u cry alone, may be will feel better.." u said...

very quite inside the car, just can feel warm of my tear, the light beside the road, like a shining firefly there n laugh to me, y so cowardly...
outside the car, got big field, condominium, n a old security guard stand down of the condo.....

if someone ask...."really need to so sad ????"... i will answer "yes"...
if anyone doubt... "really got that much of tear ???? is that true ???..." i will answer "may be"...

u come back to car after smoking.. "r u ok ???...?" u asked again...
no answer, still sob there ... "u can lend my shoulder, if feel comfortable" u asked....
"feel tired ???..." asked again...

"cry n cry ...feel got someone to trustworthy, car move again, look forward to the way of the home... sleepy ....
thank...fren...